Hi there

So once more its a very long time ago since i wrote here... Just didn't had something special to tell but know, I have syomething wonderful, amazing n exciting experience...

Hmmm how shall I begin?

In January i got invited to a special Event. It was a Bollywood Event with a big Show and the possibility that Shah Rukh Khan could come! At least, that didn't happend unfortunately... I was sad and disappointed coz it is my dream to meet him! As you all know I'm blind and I dont know how Shah looks.... My dream is to meet him and touching his face to to know at least, how he is looking! Thats why I was disappointed. But nevertheless, I decided to go anyway to this Event on 30.June.

In the weeks before I had to prepare a lot... Buying a new, beautyful but also as cheep as possible, gown n shoues... Time seems to be going so slowy by... And i really looked forward to the Event but in the same time was sad because i thought that my dream would never come true.

And then, on 20.June Shah had his first Radio Show at BBC Asian Network in London! Of course i was very excited to listen to him! Oh my god, first time live!!! Felt so close... Then i heard that Fans could eMail him and call him!!! Immediately I wrote a mail that ive snet again, and again.. Dont know, 50 times i guess? And I've tried to call him in the Show. After 4 times trying a women picked up the phone n I had to tell her, if I want to say hello or speak with him! Of course i wanted to talk with him n so i had to leave my question n my phone number, so that he could call back. I can tell u, at that moment I didnt knew a Question!!! N the one I had then wasn't that intrestig coz later in the Show he told ppl names, that say hello to him. He mentioned me too! OK, no call from him... I was so sad but also very happy coz he mentioned me!
20 Minutes later i was freaking out completely! He began to read mails again n to speak to those ppl. Suddenly he says:
And Caroline from Switzerland, im blind and i love ur voice so much, one day i hope to meet you n touch ur face so i will know how u look like..
Hi Caroline I love you, yes Inshah Allah  we gonna meet, and we gonna chat, and Ill sit with you, holding your hand and you can touch my face, and i will touch ur face an we'll have a big hug to hug though. Thank you so much, I love you Caroline and god bless you!
Woooooooooooooooooow!!! I couldn't belive it!!!! What lovely, kind, sweet words!!! I was crying so hard coz of happyness.. I was so deeply touched! I wasn't able to tweet anymore, my whole body was shaking, couldn't controle my hands or whatever...
NEVER was that happy before!! There were so many feeling inside me, there r no words for that! Millions have listend to him, heard his words to me n I started to belive again that i will meet him!

And then I wasn't that disappointing anymore that he wouln't come to Stuttgart to this Event. I knew I will meet him one day n so I was happy to go there n just enjoy a great Show!

It was a Show of Faraz Khan, the founder of 'The Bollywood Academy' in London. He is a dancer n actor, already worked together with Shah, Arjun Rampal and others of Bollywood. The reason was that he opens a Bollywood Academy in Germany too! So ppl who like to learn Bollywood dances, if its for fun or if they want to start a carreer, he teach them.

And I was invited as a special Guest by the Organisator (Here once again a huuuuuge Thanks to Sonju n all the others) n so me and my best friend Pamely, who guided me n was guest too, we travelled on friday 29. down to Stuttgart. As we arrived I called one of the girls who really awaited me! I had befor mail contact with some of them n they were all so happy thst i will come! So lovely n kind they were... So we arrived n I called Nadine and 5 minutes later she came to our room and a big hello happend! It was so funny! Then she told me that lots of the girls and some of the Dancers n the crew from the show will meet in the restaurant beside and that i shall come too. She had to leave then to pick up Anni at the airport. So Pamela and me packed out and went out to go to the reastaurant.

Ok, what you all maybe not belive is this fact: Pamela is veeery shy and yes, unbelivable, me too! We sood in front of the hotel n we didn't know what to do! We both were too shy to just go over there to ppl we dont know!! For surely 30-45 minutes we stood there, went closer to a group of german ppl that may go to the dinner too, waited that they talk to us, went a bit back, coz nobody of us was able just to speak to them.. So funny at least! Haha we both felt like we hsve been ordered to come but nobody picked us up...!
At least i said. "SO COME ON, WE JUST GO¨" and once again we went over, into the restaurant n stood there like two idiots.. Then sombody stood up n asked if we will come to the event too, i said yes and we sat down. Suddenly somebody came n asked if I am Caroline n the a big hello was the following moment.. They were all soooo lovely n kind to me! I heard then that Sonju will come later, the one who invited me, coz she was picking up Faraz Khan at the airport. Later, as we stood outside to smoke a cigarette (yes i smoke n i know its not healthy) She came n i said hello, embraced her n she said, "Hi, i have somebody here for u!" she gave my hand into two other hands...
A beautyful voice said: Hi Caroline, its me, Faraz. Im so happy that u came, n very happy to meet you! N then he hugged me! I flet so much love for me, it was just wooow... What a lovely, kind n nice person! N he smelt so good! Later we took some pics n had some chats.. What a man...!

I met also other very intresting n lovely ppl! Really found new friends there! Later i had lovely chats with 3 amazing ppl outside the hotel! Haha we talked til 4 o clock in the morning!
And i had a really lovely, intresting n long chat with Abbas Hasan, a singer n actor. It was first a bit akward coz I didn't knew who he is.. Never heard of him before.. But he was very kind n intersted in me n how i manage my life.
Uff n then get up at 6 to prepare us for the show, to get beautyful. Coz at 11 we had to be there.. Ok we were late, we came there at 11.40.. And the Show was amazing! I had to Dance on the stage with Nsila Mughal, the Manager of Abbas n Faraz, was so funny! Then I heard Abbas singing for the first time! I was amazed! What en entertainer n what a beautyful voice!!! Just great!!! And he came two times to me, i was sitting directly beside the stage, n touched my hand... sooo lovely! I was deeply touched of his kindness! N Faraz did it too then! And Faraz bet me a second time on the stage! It was so lovely. He daid that heres a special guest, me, and that hes very happy that i could have come. He had a gift for me, apicture of him for the wall, and he signed it for me! Soooo lovely... I was juat overwhelmed and as he asked me if I want to say something I couldnt! Was just too much love...
Later he bet me once again to join him n help him to cut the band they built on the stage, who had the meaning of dedicate the new School...  N afterwoods, they cut the cake n he feeded me with the first bite! Soooo cute of him! It was really a very special day for me! I never received so much love n kindness before in my life!!!

Then we all met us later in a hotel to have a dinner, to chat, to party.. I was shy but i asked Faraz if I may touch his face... Sonju asked him before n he said immediately yes. So we went to a more silent place where we were alone.. (coulnt do it in front of all those ppl) I can tell u, he really looks good!!!

As we were back then in the hotel, i met again my new friends n we chat again til 4 o clock in the morning! And to say goodbye was so hard n painful!!! I cryed a lot coz i was so happy with all them n i dont know when i will meet them again! Of course we changed numbers n mail to keep contact or in touch, but it hurted... I really miss them a lot!

I will never forget those wonderful moments! Never forget that love for me, the love i have for them! It was such an amazing time!!!

There were happen many things more, wonderful things but some are my secrets, my precious... Maybe one day i csn tell all, if i like to:-) Some very special moment should be my secrets coz they were all alone for me!

I hope u all understand n that u feel with me!!!

Lots of love