Hi there...

Uh.. i have missed for many days to write...

But there was nothing special to tell.. Still spending my days in looking for a job, to listen to movies with Shah Rukh Khan and to Twitter. I have found many real good friends and it is just good for me, to do that at the moment. There are still very much things that disquiet me so that i dont have much of patience with myself or things. But when I meet my friends in Twitter, i feel much better...
But even though, i feel sometimes very alone. It seems that there is no place for me to fit in, cannot find a job because nobody wants to emply a blind woman... And there is no man whos interested in me. Man can only see my handicap, not my heart. To me it seems like they only want health, seeing woman. <Mabe they think that im helpless and dpendent... I dont know. Once again one told me that im not usefull... Usefull? Hello?

At the moment i really feel like im nothing worth at all...

I ask myself, if i have to excursion in a other country, far away from Switzerland.. Maybe in a diffrent culture, with other traditions and other thinking, i would find, what im needing and searching for. How could men be so cold at heart! People like this make me more handicapped as i am!!!

So please, if u read this and if u are a man.. Think first! Think about my words and try to imagine, what this means! What it means to be left alone! To get hurtet in that way!

For women its not so hard to live with a man with a handicap... no the have patience. I know many blind people: Every man has a woman on his side, is married and have even kids! But the women... they are alone..

What a world...

Bye

Hi there

I still cannot describe, what im feeling since Shah Rukh khan has replyed me...

There is glowing a lot of hope to really meet him! Everything seems to be a bit brighter, friendlier,easier...

It ouched me very deeply, i feel a bit like Im having to angels on my shoulders sitting there... I know that he would never write something like that without meaning what he writes! Hes such an honest person, with such a great heart and love to give to people...Im sure, one Day he will write me to meet him..

It feels so special, so overwhelming... hes got soooo many followers... today1'387'685 and he wrote me! He wrote to a blind woman in switzerland whos nothing special, who felt like an nobody... Its such an honour.. I have so much respect to him, for who he is, not the star, the human..

I hope so much that i get the chance to tell him, how much he helped me without knowing about!

<love n hungs to all

Bye

Hi there

Today is the best day in my life! Something happend that i never have awaited:

My Idol, King Khan, the one and only Shah Rukh Khan has replyed one of my Tweets!!!

I'm untoldable, unbeliveable happy about that!

This morning, or afternoon at 12.30 my phone rang,  I was still in my bed, because i went to bed at 4.00am. Then my best Twitter Friend cryed into the Phone: Hey he has written to U!
First I understood only that he has written, but not to me... She said again and then I ran to my Laptop, started it and I can tell you all, It never needed so much time to start as in this moment before!
Then I searched and searched for his reply and the: there it was! Really, he has written to me, to a blind nobody from Switzerland... unbeliveable...

Will see u insha allah... thanx for ur kindness...

Still can't belive it! Im so happy... I danced, sang, cryed, loughed, all together...

I Do hope that he doesn't forget me and I really meet him... But i also think that he remember me and will meet me... fantastic feeling, I could embrace the whole world, shout out loud: Shah Rukh Khan has replyed me... Never thought that i could be as happy like this, and its a long, long time ago, i felt like this... And many many years that i have cryed tears because of happyness...

I dont know how to say how happy, proud and most notably honoured i feell. there are no word who can demonstrate that feeling... A bit like there are sitting two angels on my shoulders..

Im deeply, deeply tuched..

Bye

Hi there

A few Days are gone since i have written.

I feel every day a bit better! At least i found something that make me feel good, better from day to day.One thing is the movies with Shah Rukh khan. As more as I hear his movies, as more I get a fan... If he is a lover, bad Guy, handicapped, or a mafia boss.. it doesn't matter to me! I love every part he acts!

I follow him in Twitter and have found friends there, people who also love him, people who understand me and don't hostile me or exclude me because of blindness! People who take me as I am! And tis is so wonderful to me!

With one friend I meet every evening in Skype and we talk talk and talk, about SRK, about our feelings, about the world. It means so much to me!

And i often listen to the soundtracks of Bollywood movies, i love the sound!

so, thst's all for today!

Stay healthy and thinka about this: Blindness is not a desease who is contagious! But ignorance,hostility and excluding are very virulent!

Bye