Hi there...

Uh.. i have missed for many days to write...

But there was nothing special to tell.. Still spending my days in looking for a job, to listen to movies with Shah Rukh Khan and to Twitter. I have found many real good friends and it is just good for me, to do that at the moment. There are still very much things that disquiet me so that i dont have much of patience with myself or things. But when I meet my friends in Twitter, i feel much better...
But even though, i feel sometimes very alone. It seems that there is no place for me to fit in, cannot find a job because nobody wants to emply a blind woman... And there is no man whos interested in me. Man can only see my handicap, not my heart. To me it seems like they only want health, seeing woman. <Mabe they think that im helpless and dpendent... I dont know. Once again one told me that im not usefull... Usefull? Hello?

At the moment i really feel like im nothing worth at all...

I ask myself, if i have to excursion in a other country, far away from Switzerland.. Maybe in a diffrent culture, with other traditions and other thinking, i would find, what im needing and searching for. How could men be so cold at heart! People like this make me more handicapped as i am!!!

So please, if u read this and if u are a man.. Think first! Think about my words and try to imagine, what this means! What it means to be left alone! To get hurtet in that way!

For women its not so hard to live with a man with a handicap... no the have patience. I know many blind people: Every man has a woman on his side, is married and have even kids! But the women... they are alone..

What a world...

Bye